Missing You

Isn't it funny how you can miss something so badly that you think your soul can break. No, not break. If it broke, you'd be dead and it would all be over - but no, there is no such mercy. No - breaking would be good. Instead it just withers, wanes, fades, shrivels - so most of the LIFE drains out of it, but it stays there - enough to keep you in some sort of mean, cruel existence.

Actually, no - it's not funny. No way can it be funny. Not even "funny" as in "odd" and "weird". Missing something, someone, so badly that you think the world should just end right there and then to put you out of your misery - even if it means billions of other people have to die - that's not funny by any definition of the word.

So - for any of you out there that are missing someone or something so bad you'd destroy the World in an instant just to get it back, I'm saying; "I understand, I empathise, I truly appreciate what you're going through."

I'm sending you a HUG coz I suspect you need one!

Karma

Karma. Most people see it as a see-saw, a balance of good vs bad. Unfortunately I don't think it's as simple as that. It would be easy to see Karma as some kind of cosmic Sage accounting package, balancing credits and debits - but all that would mean is; do enough good and you're off the hook when you do something bad. That doesn't work for me.

I once tried to explain it to a friend - for every bad act, a good one cancels it out - but that's not right. I can do a good act, say, help a friend dig their garden. So far, it's good. But then I wait for a thank you and already I'm turning my good deed into a bad one, because I'm seeking a reward, and to do an act expecting a reward (even if that reward is praise) is showing greed, a motive, a want. So my selfless act was actually a slightly selfish one - I'm looking for a pat on the back, a reward.

Not good.

Therefore I try to keep my deeds as selfless as possible. It's not always easy, but the fact that I'm consciously doing this must mean more good acts than bad ones.

My Karma is good.

: D

LOVE

I told my daughter today that LOVE is the biggest thing. It's bigger than sadness, bigger than pain and bigger than being naughty. LOVE is huge. A little LOVE is bigger than the biggest LIKE.

LOVE is Everything.

LOVE is All.

Seasons

When the sun shines and the heart sings, when the leaves fall and the Earth is carpeted with russet and gold. When Winter's white evens out the blemishes and imperfections and makes everything equal again. When the Sun's powerful pull returns her precious Child Earth closer to her, and warms it in her embrace, and the Trees awaken once more and put on their new clothes ready for another Summer.

The Seasons, I love them!

When the rain lashes harsh against the windows, eerie moaning of the wind in the eaves.

When crocus and snowdrop tease up through the barely thawed ground.

Children laughing, splashing in the surf, lazy evenings, the Breath of Life

Chilly mornings, scarves and hats, catch your breath.

Watch the World getting ready for bed again, yawning sleepily - It's been a long day!

Sleep...

Sleep covers a man all over, thoughts and all, like a cloak.
It is meat for the hungry, drink for the thirsty, heat for the cold and cold for the hot.
It is the current coin that purchases all the pleasures of the world cheap; and the balance that sets the King and the Shepherd, the Fool and the Wise Man even.

Ask Yourself...

... What is important to you? Is it Family? Love? Money?
Now, think about energy. Energy is not infinite - we only have so much per day. Think of your energy as a measurable quantity - like having a bag with ten units of energy in it. This is how much you have to play with - so try not to waste it! Anger, frustration and impatience all eat up valuable energy from your ration of ten units, leaving less for the things you value the most. Expending energy cursing your ill-fate or bad luck, or blaming someone else for your misfortunes is a waste. It would be better used on something important to you instead. Life is not always fair, and if you keep this in mind then dealing with adversity is easier. Instead of wasting energy wishing things were different, or getting angry at the unfairness of the situation, use the energy to make the best of it. Many a poker hand has been won on a single pair. Be positive and don't waste energy on the things that don't matter.

Shine

Have you ever wondered what makes you so special? Look inside yourself and see how bright your universe is in there. One of my most favourite things is to see someone shine. Show them the truth - show them how unique they are, how clever, imaginative, creative they are. Give them an insight into the wonderous things they conceal inside themselves, and watch that brightness burst out from the locked-up place inside of them. It's a joy to behold.
It doesn't take much to see this truth - a little melted silicon, some simple reflective surfacing, and a border of your choice - drift wood and shells, pink plastic hearts, gunmetal grey or polished pine. Yes, a mirror. Look into the mirror and see you. Not your face or your hair - not your appearance. Just look at YOU. What you see in the mirror is what other people see - but by looking past that, you will begin to see what other people CANNOT see. That which is within - only you can release that. We have an inner light, suppress it and it's like snuffing a candle - bereft of air it will die. Let it out, let it breathe, and watch it flare and brighten. Do me a favour? Blind someone with your radiance today - go on, do it for me!