Missing You

Isn't it funny how you can miss something so badly that you think your soul can break. No, not break. If it broke, you'd be dead and it would all be over - but no, there is no such mercy. No - breaking would be good. Instead it just withers, wanes, fades, shrivels - so most of the LIFE drains out of it, but it stays there - enough to keep you in some sort of mean, cruel existence.

Actually, no - it's not funny. No way can it be funny. Not even "funny" as in "odd" and "weird". Missing something, someone, so badly that you think the world should just end right there and then to put you out of your misery - even if it means billions of other people have to die - that's not funny by any definition of the word.

So - for any of you out there that are missing someone or something so bad you'd destroy the World in an instant just to get it back, I'm saying; "I understand, I empathise, I truly appreciate what you're going through."

I'm sending you a HUG coz I suspect you need one!

Karma

Karma. Most people see it as a see-saw, a balance of good vs bad. Unfortunately I don't think it's as simple as that. It would be easy to see Karma as some kind of cosmic Sage accounting package, balancing credits and debits - but all that would mean is; do enough good and you're off the hook when you do something bad. That doesn't work for me.

I once tried to explain it to a friend - for every bad act, a good one cancels it out - but that's not right. I can do a good act, say, help a friend dig their garden. So far, it's good. But then I wait for a thank you and already I'm turning my good deed into a bad one, because I'm seeking a reward, and to do an act expecting a reward (even if that reward is praise) is showing greed, a motive, a want. So my selfless act was actually a slightly selfish one - I'm looking for a pat on the back, a reward.

Not good.

Therefore I try to keep my deeds as selfless as possible. It's not always easy, but the fact that I'm consciously doing this must mean more good acts than bad ones.

My Karma is good.

: D

LOVE

I told my daughter today that LOVE is the biggest thing. It's bigger than sadness, bigger than pain and bigger than being naughty. LOVE is huge. A little LOVE is bigger than the biggest LIKE.

LOVE is Everything.

LOVE is All.

Seasons

When the sun shines and the heart sings, when the leaves fall and the Earth is carpeted with russet and gold. When Winter's white evens out the blemishes and imperfections and makes everything equal again. When the Sun's powerful pull returns her precious Child Earth closer to her, and warms it in her embrace, and the Trees awaken once more and put on their new clothes ready for another Summer.

The Seasons, I love them!

When the rain lashes harsh against the windows, eerie moaning of the wind in the eaves.

When crocus and snowdrop tease up through the barely thawed ground.

Children laughing, splashing in the surf, lazy evenings, the Breath of Life

Chilly mornings, scarves and hats, catch your breath.

Watch the World getting ready for bed again, yawning sleepily - It's been a long day!